Life Past 30

There are days when I wake up and find myself struck with disbelief that I am someone’s mother.  Yes, this fact hit me the day I had my daughter, but it still stops me in my tracks every now and then.  Motherhood has been the greatest thing that has ever occurred in my life and I cherish every day of it.  When I found out I was pregnant, I became so overwhelmed with feelings of happiness, fear, and anxiety that I had to literally pinch myself to make sure it was real.  I was ecstatic about being a mom-to-be, but nervous because I knew I would be responsible for teaching and nurturing another human.

Those first few years were amazing as I watched her progress from a tiny baby to a walking butterball.  She started drawing when she turned two, reading when she turned three, and had learned to use every piece of electronics by age four.  Then she reached school age and I got nervous all over again.  I didn’t want her to go to school and so far away from me for most of the day.  I calmed myself down by talking to my mother who gave me some good advice and explained that she felt the same way with me.  She excelled in school from the beginning so there was one thing I did not have to worry about.

She is close to going through puberty and I am very interested to see how that is going to play out.  Some changes have started to occur, but we talk constantly about what she should expect in the next few years.  We have great communication and she knows she can talk to me about anything.  She is a great kid who is well mannered, highly intelligent and intuitive, enjoys eating vegetables, and has a deep love for animals.

I have learned quite a lot about myself since becoming a mother, through parenting and from my daughter.  She has no idea how much she has inspired me to do better than my last greatest accomplish.  I look forward to each new day with her and watch her grow into a young woman.  Yes, motherhood has been great and I love it.