Life Past 30

Normally, I am a very busy person who has a problem with sitting down too long.  The only time sitting for a while does not bother me is when I am blogging and surfing the net or crocheting a project.  My parents used to have to tell me to walk instead of running to get from one place to another.  In school, teachers used to tell me to slow down and that I moved too fast.  I could never understand why everyone was always telling me to move a little slower.  Now I know why.

Since running the marathon, I have been taking things one day at a time and not forcing myself to do more than I feel I can handle.  It is taking some time getting used to because used to doing something all the time, but at the same time, it is allowing me to be able to enjoy things more.  In past, distant and recent, I always placed time restrictions on almost everything I did, including getting ready to see a movie and going to dinner with my family.  To me, completing any task as quickly and efficiently as possible was my goal.  I understand why slowing down a little is so important.

I am taking a break and now learning to savor moments a little more and enjoy my life experiences without feeling weighed down by thoughts of what I have to do next.  Honestly, the slower pace I have been working on has eased some tension, however, I still have those urges to race to the next task.  Surely, with more practice, I will be able to master it, but who knows for how long.  That is a question that can be answered only with the passing of time.