Life Past 30

For the past week or so, I have added a few extras to my usual meals.  I feel guilty, but I have not been able to stop myself.  Sure, I will start training again in December, but the “bad stuff” has been so delicious.  My usual diet consists of brown rice, lean turkey breast, lots of fish, some shrimp, tofu, pasta, potatoes, and dark green vegetables.  Spinach is my favorite and has completely replaced lettuce in my salads for the past two years.  You can imagine how angry I was when spinach was recalled a little while ago.  I was forced to eat Romaine lettuce instead, but at least it is dark green and has more nutrients than lettuce.

Now, back to my recent unhealthy munches.  I have been snacking on chocolate, chips, and even had a few brownies.  The funny thing is I enjoyed every bite, crunch, and chew while feeling horribly guilty at the same time.  Is that even possible?  Apparently it is and I have proof.  When I went to the grocery store tonight, I bought a box of brownies that contains 6 packs (12 brownies total) for a $1.39.  I convinced myself that I would not have one until tomorrow while at work.  Well, I can tell you THAT plan did not work out well.  I had one pack because the creamy texture of the brownies was just too much to resist at that moment.

I believe this latest snack attack is the result of me wanting to run and not being able to.  When I was training regularly, it was a rarity for me to crave any kind of junk food, but I would indulge in chocolate every now and then.  The healthy lunch of steamed green beans and cod I had today made me proud.  I did not even look at the french fries that were laid out in all their golden splendor.  As of now, the junk fest ends.